Recently I can't help but think about going home... back to Adelaide I mean...
Just over three months and I'll leave the country... Indonesia... my second home... my friends.. my new way of life... kekasihku... My new campus.. no more daily street-street... no more cheap food at warungs... no more ice skating on thursdays or playing billiards at Shelter... no more speaking Indonesian... I'll have to use western toilets, and take showers.. Sit alone at bus stops.. back to doing my own washing and cooking all my own meals.. spending too much time online... inside.. at home.. rather than out and about with friends... worrying about money and trying to work out where I'm going to live...
But hardest of all, trying to deal with feeling like a part of me is missing.. like I used to have so much more, and suddenly its all gone.. with the wave of my hand, and a tear running down my face, it will all disappear... not forever... I know that... but it doesn't make it any easier... I don't know how I'll cope when here I see my friends everyday, and yet I still miss them when they're not around...
6 comments:
jangan dipikirin, that makes me extremely sad. ur leaving, im leaving. im gonna miss everything, every little detail of our daily adventure. please dont make me cry. i'll fly to adelaide, i promise. but ur gonna have to menampung me hehehe
xoxo heaps
too late. u cried, biach. i bet u did. me too.
dama's leaving. ur leaving. guess who'll feel dumped.
shinpai shinaide, bondut... we still have 3 months 7 days 13 hours? and some minutes and seconds. mukatsuku.
xox
From my experience you'll likely find your way back to Indonesia sooner than you think. If you are infected to such a degree it will likely become a central part of your life from here on in.
Though I should warn you, get ready for the inevitable blank stares and 'oh i see's from people when you start talking about Indonesia back home. You'll notice the people who have had the experience you've had though, because you'll be able to see the fire in their eyes when they talk about the place. Like something (well probably there is something) living within them.
i thought jordan was talking (to me) about leaving a comment on my blog. apparently he left one on yours.
dont be sad ... you will just have to hurry up finish uni and get a job there ... besides you are only as far as the phone and im sure your friends will keep in touch ... smile .. you have made fantastic friends and priceless memories .. be happy ... xmumx
hello, total stranger here but I just had to say, reading this post was like reading my own thoughts. I'm about to leave to come over to UGM to study for ACICIS. I was studying at UGM at the start of this year and it is really hard to return "home" to Australia. I hope you find your way back. You've discovered something really special
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